Wednesday, July 15, 2015

What to do, what to do


 I've been thinking about my blog; there's that, at least. Not sure what I'm thinking, except for guilt. Definitely thinking/feeling guilt. This poor blog has basically been ignored for several months. I can't even look at it because I feel such guilt.

For a long time I didn't feel like writing. Hopelessly wordless. I think I blew my wad, pardon the expression, getting my books published and that task was so huge, so exhausting and, ultimately, so disappointing, that I just couldn't muster up the energy to even think about writing again.

Lately little ideas have been flitting around my brain. Thoughts. Like, I'll be driving somewhere and I'll sink into that mysterious funk-like state that used to meant ideas were hatching, and I'd think, gee, this would make a good blog post. But then I remembered that I don't actually blog anymore. Cause you have to blog to blog.

I know, I'm hella deep.

There's also the reciprocal side of blogging. If you blog, and hope other people will read your posts, you should read their posts as well. Obviously I haven't been doing that either. My entire social media interactions have been limited to brief Facebook scribbles, mostly jokes and occasionally a self-righteous arrow aimed at racists and other nasty folk. I've been spending more time painting, sewing and cooking than I have doing anything else. And only one of those at a time. I've always prided myself on multi-tasking but apparently if I'm sewing, I'm not painting, and if I'm painting there's going to be take-out for supper.

It's not like I don't care what my blogger friends are up to: I do. Sincerely. But I used to spend hours, every day, catching up with other blogs. I just don't want to invest that kind of time anymore.

So the dilemma is, if I'm not going to read other blogs, I probably shouldn't blog. But then again, I didn't start a blog to necessarily have it read by other people: I started one because I wanted to write, and blogging was new and exciting and I fell in love with every aspect of it.

I always promised myself I wouldn't write one of those "should I blog or not" posts, but here I am. I think this is more an out-loud argument for myself trying to line up the positive and the negative and finally answering The Clash's age old question, "Should I stay or should I go?"

Heck, I don't know. I'll see how I feel about all this tomorrow. Meanwhile, I don't expect you to read my drivel. Move on. Read a post from a blogger who truly has a passion for the game; someone who actually has something to say.

This? This is just the inner musings of someone putting off laundry.

22 comments:

  1. I've noticed a marked drop in blogging this summer....I hardly get any comments at all anymore, but I visit everyone that's updated which shows up on my blogger dashboard. I'm not getting reciprocal visits though which annoys me. Maybe people are just busy cause it's summer vacation.

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    1. Maybe. I'm wondering if there is just less blogging going on? I dunno.

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    2. I've had the same problem. I comment on other people's blogs, but there's not the same reciprocity there was a few years ago. I started taking part in the #mondayblogs chat on Twitter and I've discovered some great blogs but retweets do not equal engagement. People say "Does it matter if people don't read?" and I'm like...well yes. I'm not shouting into the void here! It's very disheartening.

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  2. To everything there is a season...
    I do hope your blogging season turns your way again, but more importantly (selfishly much more) I hope you write again.
    You are still being creative, and I hope you are having fun.

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  3. You could try the occasional photoblog, post the odd pics from your area.

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  4. I think there are a lot of us feeling that way....really....blogging should not be a 'have to' or 'a chore'. Do it when you feel like it and if you don't really feel like, don't do it. Right.

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  5. oops, lost my comment. Write away Cathy. I love your words, I love you. Write for yourself. I write when I need to. Write on sister. xo

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  6. there are so many of us out there. Tired, disorganized, just plain busy... I've missed your posts, but on the other hand, I've backed off my own posts. All things past. Write some more, even if it disappoints you, blog when you feel like it. ...or just kick back, take a deep breath and try to savor life.

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    1. Savouring life. Yes, Diana, yes. Plus, I'm getting too old to be doing stuff I don't really want to be doing.

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  7. Totally thinking the same way as you are right now.

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  8. Don't fret. Blog when you feel like it and don't when you don't. I don't think you should bother yourself with those "rules" you mentioned.

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  9. meah, it's that time of year......everybody has things to do, places to go.
    YOU, kiddo, forgot to mention that hands on MOTHERING is also very much on your plate lately! (good gawd wouldn't the lads hate to think of it as hands on mothering, hehehee) Sheesh girl, give yourself some credit.
    I sure hope you are still painting. I've personally hit a slump and just can't get back at it, and don't like it at all! Been talking to my artist mentor though and she told me she too hasn't had a brush in her hand for some time......she's not worried either..........

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  10. Well, regardless of what you decide, it was nice to see you pop up in my reading list! ;)

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  11. My first post of the month has been a "I'm not dead, just busy" post.

    I get it. I truly do.

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  12. Hey Cathy! I was on vacation when you posted this and am just stopping by to check on you. Really missed your sense of humor. I understand your dilemma, but hate to see you go.

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