Thursday, May 31, 2012
Debi? Is that you?
I'm losing it! Book me a room at the home cause I'm coming!
I don't know what the heck is wrong with me, whether it's just menopause fugue or early onset Alzheimer's – having just read Still Alice, of course I'm now thinking it's the latter – but whatever it is I really am losing control of my mental faculties.
The other day Dave and I were coming out of the local hospital and I saw this woman sitting on a bench. "Geez," I thought, "is that my cousin Debi? Cause it looks like Debi and she works at the hospital..." As I was mulling this over the woman looked over at me, no doubt wondering why she was being stared at, and she smiled, so I thought for sure it was Deb!
"Hi Debi, how are you?" I asked. Brightly. With such utter confidence.
The woman's smile disappeared.
Dave nudged me with his elbow and whispered, "That's NOT Debi."
And I was like, "Really? Are you sure?"
Dave said, "Yes, I'm sure. That is not your cousin. She doesn't even look like Debi."
I looked at the woman, confused.
The not-Debi smiled again and said, "I'm positive, I'm not Debi!"
I apologized profusely and walked to our car, my face scarlet and my mind still confused.
A similar incident happened to me yesterday, only it wasn't Debi I imagined I saw, it was someone else. I wish I could remember who it was I thought I saw but I have drawn a complete blank. I remember being out in the car and seeing someone drive by and thinking it was someone I knew, but I can't remember who I thought it was. My short term memory is getting ridiculously short.
This memory thing is so frustrating. I have never had a problem remembering words but lately and often I can't seem to find the words I want to say. I draw word blanks with increasing frequency. Not so much when I write, but when I'm talking.
Like I said, book me a bed at the home, Mildred, I'm coming in.