Wednesday, March 10, 2010

I Had A Dream

Lingering ice floes drift casually down the Muskoka River, soaking up spring sunshine, enjoying their last ride.

LAST NIGHT I had a dream.
I dreamt that the world discovered my blog and thousands of people were hitting it, one after another.
The ticker tape machine attached to my computer was pumping out a steady stream of names and comments from people who stopped by and said wonderful things about my incredible writing talent.
In the subway was a billboard with a picture of me as a 20-year-old on it proclaiming my blog BEST BLOG OF THE YEAR, with little stars all around the words.
When I woke up, I felt like it was Christmas morning. 
I had a smile on my face.
I made coffee and then turned on the computer.
I whistled a bit.
I clicked on this space, expecting something glorious, only to see there was nothing new.
In fact, only one of my regular blogging friends had bothered to stop by and leave a comment.
My smile faded.
It was as if Santa had left a lump of coal in my stocking.
Do you know what it's like to have a dream so real that you wake up with a smile? Or a scream? Or desperate, desolate tear-drenched grief?
I know you know.
There is a fine line between wakefulness and the deep slumber of the twisted, inner soul.
And all I can say is this: thank god for Folger's.


8 comments:

  1. its kinda like the "I have a million dollars under my pillow" dream. That one always frustrates me.

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  2. Was your computer like a Telex machine?
    Beautiful photo of the river by the way. Nice to see water again.

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  3. I wish I could remember my dreams!

    There's plenty of time for those thousands of people to find your blog! :)

    And when they do, make sure you have plenty of coffee to share.

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  4. Nice dream at least! Last night I dreamt that twitter kept giving me pages of other people's private messages and none of my own. I woke up cranky.
    You have a beautiful blog and one day thousands will notice. :)

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  5. Ah, the eternal dream: fame and fortune, or flying...I forget :-)

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  6. Oh, I sounded like I was whining, didn't I? I didn't want to whine.
    Seriously, I am already thrilled and overwhelmed by the number of people who visit here! Couldn't wish for more!
    I guess what I was trying to say is my dreams are so realistic that, when I wake up, I often have trouble figuring out if it was a dream or if it really happened.
    I even think that in the middle of a dream sometimes.
    Laura: you really dreamed about Twitter?? hahah... I don't know what's worse, blog dreams or Twitter dreams.
    Jenn: all of the above. Scary dreams, those flying ones.
    Marisa: I've got lots of coffee in the cupboard. Come on by and I'll put on a fresh pot.
    Deb: YES, it was EXACTLY like a Telex machine!
    Mark: Do you often dream of millions under your pillow? Funny, I never have that one... I wish I did...

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  7. Girl, you need to get you some good coffee. Grind your beans fresh in the AM. Forget Folgers!

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  8. Build it and they will come. Soon you'll be running us all off with a broom so you can get some rest!

    Besides, if you keep posting beautiful photographs like that one up there, you're gonna need a security team up in this joint. ;-)

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